Tuesday, June 29, 2004

I was wondering what Balqis think of her Mommy. Adam of course, thinks of me as his pacifier, his toy and friend. Yesterday morning, Balqis asked me ... 'Where is my new bicycle? Say only but never buy!'. And I thought ... I'd better get that particular bicycle today! We've been promising her the new bicycle everytime Adam wanted to use hers. And she actually had outgrew the one she has now. We thought give that to Adam and buy her a new one. We were of course, unaware that she has been listening to the conversation because she looked like she was concentrating on her colors. With her head cocked to the left, eyes staring straight at the picture and hand busily coordinating colors. Didnt realise the ears were also working overtime!

I have a 2 days medical leave :o) because I have flu. Balqis is off to school and Adam is with the babysitter. I have the whole house to myself and of course, did some light housework. I cant keep still. And I know that my darling husband would suspect that I will be doing my favorite housework chores which is doing the laundry. At the rate the children are wearing clothes like 4 attires a day, I cant wait for the weekend to do the laundry... it will be sky high! As it is, they averaged about four outfits a day between them and simple arithmatic will tell you how much laundry I have to endure, and that's just them.

I was going to think about what Balqis think of her Mom. The other day, just as I dropped her off at school, she beamed and clutched at my sleeves, apparently showing me off to her friends... saying 'Look this is my Mommy you know ... nice or not... nice or not.' I was secretly laughing in my heart. I looked down to look at her beaming face. Her friends looked up to me. And Balqis said... 'Saylah Hi to my Mommy... You say Aunty ... Comelah call my Mommy, Aunty.' It was just so funny the way her mind works.

Still thinking about her bicycle, perhaps I will dash there at about 11am. I still have to go to an appointment at 3pm later somewhere AmpWalk on Jln Ampang. After that I had to meet up with two of my journalist/writer friends at Mid Valley to discuss an impending project. Exciting writing project! Code named .... eerr.. havent think of a code name yet.

What I thought of my Mom was that she was very kind and beautiful. She is soft spoken but able to scream (tarzan-like) whenever she is angry. She always wants the best for her kids and is a worry-wart. I take after her in the worry-wart department. All in all, she is the best Mom in the world!

Would Balqis and Adam think that too? I'm unto my second Strudel -- but not to ponder on what Balqis & Adam would think of me... more like pondering whether I should be putting out the laundry or just let it be in the drying area. Tough decision... need a board meeting for this.

Okay ... flu medication starting to kick in -- with a RED ink-ed message: Can cause drowsiness. Do not operate heavy machinery'. Oh No! I need to use the washing machine!





signing off..Hazelinesnow at 10:31 AM [ | ]

{Takes all sorts to make the world .. the world..}

People, I have two announcements.






Announcement no. 1:

SALE
Clarins Beauty Fair
Savings of up to 70%
Date: 2nd - 3rd July 2004
Time: 10am - 5pm
Venue: Mahkota 1 & 2, Level 3
Armada Hotel, Petaling Jaya


Announcement no. 2:

OFF SEASON SALE
Shiseido, Za, Whitia, EtthuSais, Uno
Date: 3rd - 4th July 2004
Time: 10am - 6pm
Venue: Edaran Tan Chong Motors Petaling Jaya
Jalan Kemajuan (near section 14)

So there ... I bet that some people will be busy this weekend -- beginning Friday!
Knock yourselves out!



signing off..Hazelinesnow at 9:04 AM [ | ]

{Takes all sorts to make the world .. the world..}

Monday, June 28, 2004

Today, I'd returned back the folder given to me by Balqis's teachers before the school holidays. I had to pen down my signature at these stuff:

~ her Computer Aided Work Book
~ her Environment and Social Studies
~ her Fun in Numbers Activity Worksheet
~ her Pre writing Skills
~ her I Can Count Mathematics Nursery
~ her qi ming ji ben da o de Nursery Work Book (Moral)
~ her Pre Reading Activity Book and
~ her Saya Belajar ABC - Buku Kerja

What a lot of stuff she's learning! For a 3 year old and 9 months old baby!? I am so proud of her!

I also had to pen down my signature on her Report Card, for her first semester's report! First time doing it and I am thinking ... she has a long way to go, still. She's not even half way... She's just a baby ... And I told myself that I will work very hard to ensure that she has all it takes to be a successful being now and the here-after even if I have to do it alone.

I was doing my manicure today and my manicurist was telling me that she has a 5 year old son -- the reason why she is working her butt off for. She is a divorcee and her ex husband she claims does not care less about the son. She is actually sending the boy for extra tuition for English, Math and Mandarin so that the boy will be, in her words, 'clever not like the mother must work only'. 'I want him to be clever'. She tells me that she is paying RM800 a month for his school and tuition. And she is no executive. She told me that at night she has to do part time work too, to make ends meet. But most important in her life is that she aspires for her son to be 'clever'. She does not ask for more. For her to be able to have enough money to sent her son to school and tuition, she has to put up her son with a baby sitter who takes care of him for her all the time. She will only pick up her son on weekends when she does not have any part time work. There are also times when she could only see her son once a month. But, she speaks to him on the phone every night, to hear his voice and 'to let him also hear his mommy's voice. I tell him I love him ... and for him to study hard because his mother works very hard to make him clever'.

I just thought... there are a lot of things only Mothers will do for their children. No matter how difficult the situation is, it's always the children that is priority. Does not matter whether she is tired or needed a rest badly or wanting stuff for herself. What matters the most to this particular lady is that her son is being educated and being given the chance to succeed in life, with proper education. And her ambition for herself is ... 'I only want to do people's nails and be good at it so that I have enough money to send my boy to school and make him clever'. That sets me thinking. Even some fathers in this world would not have done that. Although it's the fathers' duties and responsibilities to go the extra length and find means to ensure that the children are very well taken care off in terms of clothing, toys and schools, not all families are that lucky. In some families, I see that the ardent thoughts of wanting their kids to succeed badly belongs to the Mothers. And she goes all out to ensure that her dreams are fulfilled. Some of us, take things for granted and will not give things like this a second thought: one reason, somebody else is already taking care of it so why waste my energy and money investing. Another reason: whatever will be, will be. No need to go beyond the boundaries of your circle of life.

We all have dreams for our children. I have dreams for my Balqis & Adam. Just take one look at them and you know that there is nothing else that you dream of but the best and only the best for them. And for that, even if it takes all my might, I will ensure that they will always receive the best of my love and attention.

Nothing but the best for Balqis & Adam. And I hope and pray that both of you will succeed in life and hereafter. And for both of you to always love me.




signing off..Hazelinesnow at 10:20 PM [ | ]

{Takes all sorts to make the world .. the world..}

Saturday, June 26, 2004

For our 'Go Jalan' time today, Balqis decided that she didnt want to wear the pink long sleeve pullover that Mommy chose. Instead, she chose the beige pullover with a big butterfly motive on the front of it. She was OK with Mommy's choice for pants -- the beige long pants with little whale motives all over it. But I forgot to take out a belt for her so there was a request for one. She finally had on a brown leather belt. Okay now .. major decisions. Which shoes should I wear? So help me GOD... so there we were waiting patiently while she made up her mind. We were so full of suggestion -- and me, silently praying that she wont be asking for her Barbie Roller Shoes because I cant for the life of me, remember where I put those darn wheels! I've been searching for it, for a week!

Adam as usual, the cool dude just couldnt care less what he wear to 'Go Jalan'. He had on a dark blue jeans Elle shirt with a hood and a beige long pants with pockets and buttons all over it. He also had on his denim Oshkosh shoes. He has no qualms whatsoever about what he should wear or what color or what shoes -- 'I leave it all up to my Mom' seems to be the lifestyle of Adam. But then again, he has no choice! He is only 18 months old! Given the choice, I wonder what he will do. Wait for Mom to take care of it all for him or doing it all on his own.

Adam will perhaps be like my darling husband. Evrything needs be layed out for him else he will be hanging around in his bath towel waiting until I had time to tell him what to wear.

Okay... Hazel is definitely in a haze and there is definitely a drought coming on. And I need to lie down and rest because I had a really tiring time at the grocery shopping earlier -- there were too many wriggles, stunts and screams. I think it made a lot of people think about having some children or even one child.

zzzzzzzzzz




signing off..Hazelinesnow at 11:09 PM [ | ]

{Takes all sorts to make the world .. the world..}

Thursday, June 24, 2004

My darling husband, Balqis and me went to the night market early this evening. We didnt get anything much except for my dinner. Balqis got her RM2.00 per pack cookies. She chose the button ones with the colorful sugar on it.

It was only to the night market but Balqis insists that she must change into another outfit. I chose a black t-shirt and black teddy bears motives pants for her and she approved. She wanted a ponytail with the pink hair clip. She looked at herself in the mirror in a glance and was happy with what she saw. At first she wanted her blue Nemo wrist watch but changed her mine considering the fact that she is wearing quite a bit of pink colored accessories. So she requested for her pink watch that could be turned into a yo-yo when you opened it up.. It was a free gift when purchasing her Sustagen Kid milk powder. My darling husband took in all of this requests while shaking his head. She's a girl so naturally she likes accessories and clothes (just like the mother!).

It'll be a short entry tonight. I am holding on to my eyelids with match sticks. The babies are asleep. I would very much like to be sleeping too. While typing this, I can hear Balqis talking in her sleep and Adam screaming for milk. Everything is under control -- my darling husband is helping out tonight.

Going off to my beauty sleep and peaceful rest, praying that it'll rain and washed off all of the haze that envelopes Kuala Lumpur and other parts of the Peninsular, so that we'll all wake up to a cleaner, healthier, clearer and of course, freer air.



signing off..Hazelinesnow at 11:09 PM [ | ]

{Takes all sorts to make the world .. the world..}

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

Both Balqis & Adam are finally asleep. Adam is already on his first feed for the night. My darling husband is out buying me dinner and I am dead tired! This week has been quite a halloobaloo-with my schedule at work, that is.

They told me that Balqis cried at school earlier wanting her mommy. Balqis does that sometimes. I guess she misses me and I know that she's been having this 'I-Miss-My-Mommy-Suddenly' attack at times in school. When I asked her what happened, she just simply shrugged and told me that 'I cry a lot-alot just now. I cry and then cry some more because I wanted my Mommy'. We waited for my darling husband for a little over 30 minutes at the LRT station. By the end of the 30 minutes of waiting, Adam decided to be impatient with all this waiting and I guess he hated it because the car is stationary. Balqis had begun her crying the moment I started my journey towards the station, wanting milk. When we all got home, the kids were already too tired to play but they did get to ride their father on the back like horsey. He was not allowed to stop! Adam threw tantrums and cried and kicked and fussed when my darling husband put him down. Adam of course, was not too happy with the decision of the 'last-last' ride for the night and again for the second time tonight, threw great big tantrums. He was pacified by a milk bottle and slowly goes off to sleep right infront of the TV while watching Spiderman on HBO.

Earlier, just as soon as my darling husband got into the car at the station, he was greeted by a wailing Balqis asking for milk and a tired Adam squealing. He stopped at a nearby 7-11 to get Balqis 2 small milk cartons of which he poured one carton of milk into Balqis's bottle. Balqis grabbed it and drank it like she has not been drinking at all today, the poor baby was so hungry for milk.

All in all, I always remind myself that she's just a baby. Adam is still a baby. They are my babies no matter how old they are. But then, they are growing up so fast that you just want to remember all that's going on about them so that you wont missed anything.

Of course you'll also at the same time, reminisce when they were a lot smaller. And it seems just yesterday that Balqis was born, lying on my tummy with the umbilical cord still intact! Look at how smart and beautiful she is growing up to be. It just seem like yesterday when I first met Adam in the labor room. He sneezed and kicked the side of the plastic bassinet, just seconds after birth. Look how smart and good looking he is!

Sigh ..... (*Reminiscing time ....*) *Please do not disturb sign is up*



signing off..Hazelinesnow at 10:31 PM [ | ]

{Takes all sorts to make the world .. the world..}

Monday, June 21, 2004

When I arrived at Balqis's day care today, I was greeted by a naked-without-a-single-thread Balqis! Apparently the maid accidentally dropped some of the Scotts Emulsion she was feeding Balqis on her shirt and Balqis decided that she doesnt want to wear the shirt anymore and took off the whole entire outfit. Yeah and I still have not found the wheels to her shoes! I thought and thought about it and still couldnt figure out where the wheels are. I thought maybe perhaps Adam saw the wheels and played with them and then threw them in the waste paper basket. But am not sure coz I didnt really see Adam do that. Let's give darling Adam the benefit of the doubt. Adam darling ... did you see Kakak Balqis's wheels for her shoes? ... He looked up to me and shook his head like he understood my question. Oh well.. let's hope that it will surface one of these days. It's either that or Mommy will be forced to buy a new pair of roller shoes!

Balqis is getting picky about the stuff she wears. In general nowadays, she prefers 'big seluar' as opposed to the 'small seluar'. She likes skirts and every weekend chose her own outfits for her 'jalan'. Last Sunday, we had no plans to go out coz we figured perhaps we just kind of laze around in the house but my Darling Husband thought well... since Balqis has been nagging at him ... 'We go jalan or not ... when we go jalan ... Daddy Daddy we go jalan?' And the script went on and on until it kind of ring in your head. We took her for horse riding at Titiwangsa. She's not scared of sitting on the horses and go trotting on them. But she will never want to touch one. Last Sunday she was priviledged to see the horse being showered after a hard day's work giving rides to kids. The horse was so tired that it had it's tongue hanging out of it's mouth after the long day! The poor horse! Why didnt DBKL ensure that the horse's shift are more reasonable? We were told that the poor horse started in the morning. Took like a few hours rest from 12 noon to 3pm where it will start the whole entire process of giving rides to about 80 kids or so it seems.

This morning, it was the usual Monday morning rush for us! My Darling Husband rushed out from the house with their bags and stuff before I could put in their bottles and both of us forgot to check the bags! We realised this when we got to Adam's babysitter. Lucky we had one bottle with us and so Adam was saved! Morning madness can be crazy! It normally starts with Darling husband taking out all the bags to put in the car dodging Adam who has both hands put up to be picked up -- cant do that he doesnt have enough hands! Mommy picked up a sleeping Balqis and sat her on sofa-put shoes on-talk to Balqis-trying to wake her up. Darling Husband rushes back in-pick up the laptop and Adam-walked to the car, place the laptop on the backseat. Placed Adam on his seat. Car rolled by to the front of the house. Honk! Balqis opened her eyes-voila! But wants to be picked up specifically by Mommy. Mommy picked her up-grab her handbag-ran to the door-lock the upper lock, lock the lower lock -- DARN! had to get back inside-wasnt sure whether I switched off the iron. Open the upper lock-open the lower lock, get inside the house, put Balqis down, ran to the back room. OK. Ran back to the front, scooped Balqis up, close door. Lock the upper lock and lock the lower lock. Walked to the car carrying Balqis. Arrived at Adam's babysitter and realised no bottles only the one with us! That's not gonna be good for Adam but for today we'll take this as an emergency and Adam shall live with only one bottle for the day! General greetings and done as fast as we can with the babysitter-drove like Schumarcher to LRT Station-too late to drive to his office. Faster to hop on the choo choo train- *smooch* bye-off my husband went on the choo choo train-Mommy changed to driver's seat-Balqis wave to Daddy-Daddy better wave back or else there'll be an episode and Mommy's left alone to deal with it. Daddy waved back at a beaming Balqis. Mommy turned the car back towards house-parked the car outside the house with engine running and telling Balqis not to touch anything and Mommy will be back as fast as she can-open the upper lock, open the lower lock- ran to the kitchen, grabbed Balqis's bottle-look around to ensure that nothing else is forgotten-shut the door-lock the upper lock, lock the lower lock-got into the car-off and on the way to send Balqis to school. *smooch* *hug* Bye and 'Balqis I love you' episode, the usual stuff. Back into the car and drove back towards the house, this time I just remembered that I forgot to take the money in my Darling Husband's pocket. Unlock the upper lock, unlock the lower lock, push the door, open shoes, ran inside the room, found the money, put shoes on, ran back to the car and finally off to work!

.... and if you'll excuse me, I'm tired now and I think I'll go and be on a very long sabbatical. Just me, myself and I.





Yeah .... you wish!



signing off..Hazelinesnow at 9:57 PM [ | ]

{Takes all sorts to make the world .. the world..}

Friday, June 18, 2004

Adam cried crocodile tears just now from the babysitter's place right up to Balqis's day care, which are not too far away perhaps about 5 minutes drive from each other. He didnt want to be seated in the baby chair. Large roll of tears ran down his face and he cried so much that his collar was soaked! He stopped crying when I stopped in front of Balqis's day care as he noticed children running about the school compound. The poor darling boy wanted to be held and not be left alone in the baby chair seated behind the car when everybody else are up front. Normally Adam has no qualms over sitting on the chair and has sat in that particular chair for 5 hours on a Penang - KL Trip. Of course he spends some of his time playing, looking out of the window and napping but the main point is that he endured.

Once we got home, Balqis & Adam showered and watched some Disneys on the cable. Balqis sat cross-legged on the floor infront of the TV and Adam sat on his sister's lap! They look so cute. Balqis, still a baby herself, was amused. She's always amused whenever Adam gave a hug or kissed her or sat on her lap because I think she feels that she is a big girl now.

And ... ladies and gentlemen, please put your hands together and help me give Balqis a warm and wonderful round of applause for making it through the week without having to wear diapers at school! She noted that she must wear them at night when she sleeps but have been in training for the past 2 months to be without diapers during the day! What a wonderful, wonderful achievement.

Today is one long and tiring day but I managed to be home by 6.30pm! So I get to spent a little bit more time with the babies today. Balqis asked me on 3 different occassions today whether 'we are going 'jalan' tomorrow or Ma go to work and Balqis go to school?' When I confirmed that tomorrow we will go 'jalan' her face brightened up with a wide smile and twinkles in her eyes.

For now though, Mommy has to rest these tired brain cells. I need a massage. I need the spa. I need a manicure badly. Most of all, I need to just sit down and stare out at nothing and rest my tired aching muscles and the neurons in my brains. I need to go on a long holiday perhaps the Carribean where I could walk down the beach wearing a yellow polka dot bikini (yeah right!) and pretend that I look like Catherine Zeta-Jones (dream on!), flower in my ear(this one so far is manageable), greeting Val Kilmer as he walk pass me in his tights (Not too sure which category but some halucination has set in and it goes deeper...) ... I may also take a horse ride by the beach next to Denzel Washington who happens to gallop by. Okay ... time to sleep! Halucination to the highest degree has set in and that is not good news. Oyasuminasai ...



signing off..Hazelinesnow at 11:04 PM [ | ]

{Takes all sorts to make the world .. the world..}

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

Everybody's asleep except for me! I've got 2 proposals due first thing in the morning and I am about to doze off on my laptop, so help me GOD! Just now, when Adam was sent to the car by his babysitter, he got into the car and immediately eased himself to my darling husband at the driver's side. I had to take him off of my darling husband because Adam actually wants to play with the steering. He screamed, wriggled, throw himself on me and slithered and I couldnt take it anymore! I didnt have enough energy! Darling husband stopped the car by the road side and took him in his arms. Automatic quiet, noiseless, painless. A small smile on his face despite the tear-streaked face. Balqis was trying her darnest best to distract Adam during the episode and sigh when she failed to get his attention. Shook her head and just looked ahead ignoring the situation. When we arrived, we all decided to walk to the house from the garage so that Balqis & Adam could look up and look at the moon and the stars. Balqis noted that there was no moon tonight because perhaps it had gone to sleep. I quickly noted and agreed with her and told her that she should really consider going to sleep early tonight too, just like the moon. (Fact is I need the time to do my proposal.) Balqis saw one single lonely star and Balqis concluded that perhaps the other stars have followed the moon to sleep too and left that one behind.

When Balqis got into the car at her day care, Balqis told us that she forgot that she was not wearing any diapers today and shee-sheed in her pants at school. But only once and she has not done that for a long time too! She told us that she had cleaned herself after that 'I forgot' incident. Now according to her, she remembers and pull down her pants to show us that she does not have any diapers on. She smiled when we cheered and hip-hip-horayed and said, 'Whatlah Mama and Daddy ni!'

Adam is due for his immunisation and we shall be visiting Dr. Rayney's office next Wednesday. We hope that this particular one will not be the one that will cause fever but somehow I feel that it will be fever after that. Sigh ... Poor Adam.

Anyway, it was a good day for me and I am happy to be back from the 'jungle out there' and be in the house with the kids finally. What a long, long day!

Look at Balqis & Adam sleeping. Like little angels. My little brown sugar (Balqis) and my little buttercup (Adam)!

signing off..Hazelinesnow at 11:12 PM [ | ]

{Takes all sorts to make the world .. the world..}

I was wondering last night. Look at Balqis & Adam sleeping. They never want a blanket on them. They'll shove the blanket away or whine when I put it on. And there I was, wrapped in a comforter! We found a solution to this -- put on socks when they are asleep. Balqis when she realised, will take them off in the middle of the night but Adam does not know how to take his own socks off of his feet yet, so we're OK in that category for the time being.

I brought back work yesterday thinking that perhaps after I put the kids to sleep, I can start on some of the proposals. Wrong! I slept with them until this morning! Adam woke up with a smile this morning, as most mornings. He saw that his sister was still sleeping and when to look at her very very close, stared her close in the face -- his face was on her face. Balqis feeling irritated decided to shove Adam away. Normally Adam will retaliate back but the darling boy this morning, turn away, muttering something uncomprehensible.

I showered him and changed him. Changing him was quite a challenge this morning -- wriggling and kicking. All the energy from all those sleep last night drained out of me! Balqis woke up at 2am last night coughing. I opened my eyes and saw her sitting right next to me. My darling husband brought the cough syrup for her. She decided to be difficult and my darling husband brought her to the kitchen to take some water at her demand and forced the syrup into her mouth. Balqis threw the syrup up on the kitchen floor. I can hear my darling husband being irritated at this point. And Balqis decided to be more difficult. She wanted me to give her the other medicine. My darling husband decided that she should take some panadol syrup and phlegm medicine too. 'I want Mommy to do...' came the request in a loud wail, at 2.30am in the morning. I came out of my comforter and fed her the medicine. She wanted to watch TV and dozed off on the sofa.

As usual, will be calling the school later to check on her. Now, off to work and face the world!







signing off..Hazelinesnow at 9:09 AM [ | ]

{Takes all sorts to make the world .. the world..}

Tuesday, June 15, 2004

I had on a baju kurung this morning. Black background with such wonderful vibrant colors. And Balqis asked me ... 'Mommy ... where you going you wear like this...'The poor darling thought I am going off to 'jalan' because she has not seen me wear baju kurung for a long long time.

That is a very strong message. Okay, I'll wear more... soon. Balqis was in a good mood this morning -- a happy face as she was greeted by her teachers at the gate. Adam, the usual happy-go-lucky kid, woke up with a smile, feet pitter patter running around searching for me who was at the back room.

He didnt noticed me peeking through to see where he was heading... looking at him, while wondering... when are you going to grow hair?

Okay Mommy have to go and be a corporate lady now with a heart of a Mommy, always thinking of Balqis & Adam all throughout the entire day. And in between (which is a lot, I must announce - :o) ), I shall also be thinking of you -- my darling abang!


signing off..Hazelinesnow at 8:51 AM [ | ]

{Takes all sorts to make the world .. the world..}

Monday, June 14, 2004

I am sooo tired! I havent had a rest since Saturday, so help me GOD! Balqis & Adam slept early tonight, lucky me. I kind of miss them today. Came back late. Meeting ends at 8pm -- darn! Drove like Schumacher to get my darling husband from his work and since he is not feeling too well, I had to endure him driving at like 50km/h, which I would like to announce is not his normal speed. Normal speed, especially when we need not be home that early, will be more like 150km/h or so, you know what I mean? I spend like less than 2 hours with both Balqis & Adam tonight and they are off to dreamland. Promised myself not to be too late tomorrow. Preferably shoot out by 5pm (yeah right!) AND of course, not being needed at my Kelana Jaya office would be a fantastic blessing in disguise. Had a presentation this morning. Found time to do some shopping during lunch time on the way back from Puchong to my Kelana Jaya's office. Ate 2 tuna buns from The Bread Story in the car while driving. Bought Balqis a bun that looks like a mouse. Balqis had fun pondering on which part of the mouse she should be eating first. She decided on its nose.

Right after she finished eating the nose, she laughed out in delight. Chose the eyes. Laugh. Chose the ears. Squeal with laughter. She decided not to finish the bun after eating all the vitals of the face. Reason is that 'I wanna eat Adam's one. Adam small baby cannot eat the cat bun. Afterwards Adam scared how?' Okay, here you go. Knock yourself out! She did! She had so much fun eating the 'whiskers', nose, ears even the cat's smile was gone within seconds. Then she announced 'Ok finish. Daddy eatlah. I dont want already.'

My darling husband succumbed to the request and ate the bun for her. She did managed to share some with Adam though, at that point. Adam didnt get to see the mouse and the cat buns but he ate the buns all the same.

Every morning now, first thing Balqis'll do when she wakes up is to ask me a generic question 'Ma, today go 'jalan'?' And I will explain again, perhaps the thousand times ... no make that 1,132 times, 'No darling, mommy work. Balqis go to school.' Today, Balqis told me that she was scolded by her teacher, Mrs. Law. She confessed that it was because she hit Nicholas. Didnt tell me details but Mrs. Law scolded and I supposed advised Balqis not to repeat the same mistakes again because we play nice, we do not play rough. Balqis's reason was too straight forward. I hit Nicholas because he does not want to 'friend' me. He only 'friend' Boboy'. And she told me - 'Teacher Mrs. Law scold me, after that I cry and then cry some more... I cry a lot-a lot.' 'Yes Balqis. Next time be a good girl, show your happy face and play nice.' And listening to her saying 'Yes Mommy' to my quip is so very consoling. Whether it is the truth that it will never happen again, is a totally different story.

Balqis & Adam, what would I do without the two of you coloring the paintings of my life!


signing off..Hazelinesnow at 11:07 PM [ | ]

{Takes all sorts to make the world .. the world..}

Friday, June 11, 2004

I just remembered an incident just before we departed to Toys r Us yesterday. Before we leave, the school has assigned allocation of the car. They have a partner system and they are told which car they will be in and which teacher will be in the cars. Of course all the 18 children agreed in unison to this plan. Balqis is one of the youngest in the group thus she took some time to put on her shoes but Mommy helped. She noticed that a lot of the older children have left the classroom and had went on to the gate to go to their designated rides.

She screamed 'Hey wait for me' and started to cry. I remembered once, the teacher told me that Balqis will make everybody come back to the classroom and wait for her until she's done. This always happen at times when they had to be out of the classroom for some outside activities.
And to pacify her, everybody had to come back and hang around her waiting for her to be ready. Once she's ready, she ran ahead of the pact and instructed all of them to follow her! So, I did her shoes as fast as I can because I didnt want a similar incident. So yesterday, she was consoled because I was there and of course Mommy will make sure that everybody else will not leave without her.

So we stepped out of the school and Balqis suddenly had a change of mind. She saw the first group going into the first car and decided that she shall be in this car because this car is new and Mommy's car is not. So there had to be a reshuffle of who goes into which car. Small reshuffle but it caused quite a stir because Balqis chose to cry at this point of time. Somebody had to be pulled out from this particular car and placed in mine. Everybody's happy especially Balqis and off we go! Mommy leading the pack with 6 children and a teacher with Balqis waving at me madly from the other car, smiling from ear to ear.

Yesterday was one exhausting day. Back at work today, wishing that I am at home watching TV or maybe out shopping on a very serious retail therapy program to recover from yesterday. :o)




signing off..Hazelinesnow at 9:22 AM [ | ]

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Thursday, June 10, 2004

We are back!!!!

Somebody had a fun time at Toys R Us especially when she won the best prize for someone who answer the first question! And it was her forte too considering the fact that the first question concerned a certain accessory for Barbie. She received in total three packs of prizes.

These are what she received from the three packs:

1. Toys R Us cap
2. Toys R Us jigsaw puzzle
3. Toys R Us coloring books
4. Timon & Pumba back pack
5. Pocahontas stationaries casing
6. Crayola art smock
7. Ultraman waist pouch
8. Tigger magnapal
9. Fisher price doodle board

Wonderful day for Balqis! We started the journey in 3 cars with 18 children and 5 adults, at 10.15am. I shall state here that I was the only Mommy chaperoning. I was in the first car, leading the pack. We arrived City Square about 10.30am and went straight to Toys R Us. We were greeted by a bunch of Toys R Us staff and brought around the store for a tour. I am very proud to announce that there was no ugly scenes of wanting a toy or fighting for a toy whatsoever and this includes Balqis. I was thinking that Balqis would probably want to buy something since Mommy is around and there might be a teary scene following this request. I was wrong. She was just enjoying herself looking around at the toys. Of course, we had to linger a little bit longer at her favorite corner, the kids' laptops. They were allowed to play with the toys placed in front of the store -- the slides, the house etc. Balqis was as boisterous as ever. Caught her pushing Ilham down the slide! Ilham was not too happy about it. Sigh ... And, she was mad at Ilham when he pushed her back. She screamed and cried and told Ilham not to push her. Poor Ilham said in a very small voice '... but you pushed me first ...' She almost smack the poor boy but I managed to stop her... telling her to 'Share-share' and ALL FRIEND.

Nicholas tried to cut the queue thinking that he might be able to get infront of Balqis. Wrong move. Our darling Balqis stared him down! And with both hands on her waist said ... 'Hey .. me firstlah! You at the back! Haiya ...' Nicholas was not too happy but figured that it is probably much safer to be in the queue afterall since Balqis does not want to budge. Her astonished mother stared without a blink.

Toys R Us also hosted a tea party. Group photo. Played some more. One pack of gift each for everybody (including all the 5 adults of 4 teachers and 1 mommy). Of course, they thought that I was the teacher too because they kept on addressing me as teacher.

Back at home. Balqis has agreed to nap and is keeping that promise now. Mommy needs a rest to stretch these tired muscles.

Konnichiwa ...

signing off..Hazelinesnow at 3:14 PM [ | ]

{Takes all sorts to make the world .. the world..}

Wednesday, June 09, 2004

When I arrived at Balqis's day care today, Mrs. Law came out to ask me about this Thursday's trip to Toys R Us whether I will be chaperoning the kids together with her and the other teachers. I thought ... yeah ... I'll do it! A first for me. She also requested assistance for me to search for her the lyrics to the song 'The Greatest Love Of All' by Whitney Houston. The children are busy rehearsing for a concert and I think that this will be one of the songs the children will be singing that evening. It's a beautiful and wonderful song.

The Greatest Love Of All
by Whitney Houston

I believe that children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be

Everybody searching for a hero
People need someone to look up to
I never found anyone to fulfill my needs
A lonely place to be
So I learned to depend on me

I decided long ago
Never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I will live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity

Chorus:
Because the greatest love of all
Is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all
Inside of me
The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be

And I decided long ago
Never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I will live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity

Chorus:
Because the greatest love of all
Is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all
Inside of me
The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all

And if by chance, that special place
That you've been dreaming of
Leads you to a lonely place
Find your strength in love



And all my love to Balqis & Adam both of whom my prayers are for you to be excellent in the now and hereafter - 'Anak-anak yang Cemerlang di Dunia dan di Akhirat'.


signing off..Hazelinesnow at 12:33 AM [ | ]

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Tuesday, June 08, 2004

Last Sunday when we were at Cititel meeting up with my old friend, Adam had a grand time running around the lobby. This is of course done in two-some with Balqis. They are partners in these activities as we all would have imagined. Balqis was trying and practising 'my shoes with wheels'. Adam, the politician in the making, shook hands with every single body at the lobby. And he did this more than once with the same people. They couldnt resist it. They had to and was not given any choice. And he did this with a great PR dimpled smile and twinkles in his eyes. Who could resist a young (very young), handsome politician with promises that he will definitely come back to see them very soon and he did (immediately too)! Adam the aspiring Prime Minister then, had
practically seen and said hello with everybody in the lobby. That was when he made friends with a group of children who touched his head, touched his nose, hugged him, kissed his cheeks and ran with him throughout the lobby until he fell down. Although it was a great publicity stunt to be seen with a group of children, not only shaking hands with them but also to run around with them, it was a painful experience for Adam.

The future Prime Minister unashamedly shed tears in public, winning him more votes for the elections -- perhaps by the compassion and sensitivity shown by sheding tears in public I would presumed. Who would resist? Plus he is undoubtedly one of the most eligible bachelors around (with a great mom!).

I can imagine my darling husband's eyebrow going up and down reading this. He would be saying... 'yeah and you would be the Prime Ministers Mom whom people would interview to find out how he was as a child. You would be the glamorous Prime Minister's mother who would insist on publicity more than the Prime Minister son'. And of course he will add -- 'Beranganlah!'

A mother's words can be a prayer you know, would be my answer and to that he has yet to find a cunning remark.

Anyway, I am basking in the limelight... the future Prime Minister in the makings would not need a Publicist. He can hire me... of course with a certain privilege. I can also use my veto power -- 'I'm your mother you know' script would be very handy. I am just imagining my darling husband's face when he reads this. I'm just playing darling .... just playing with my imagination. But then of course, it will be marvelous and outstandingly glamorous if it comes true!

Okay back to reality! *snap*


signing off..Hazelinesnow at 12:24 PM [ | ]

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Monday, June 07, 2004

Adam fell down smack on his face yesterday at the lobby of Cititel Midvalley. Blood oozes from his nose. Later I saw that there was actually a cut just outside his nostril. The darling boy! He was being chased by a group of children, all bigger than him (average age: 12). It wasnt their fault actually but they all each received a smack from their mother who was queuing at the reception area. Adam stopped running to turn back to look at his assailants and the kids didnt realised he stopped and ran into him, causing him to fall down face first! Sigh .... my heart stopped.

My darling husband who has probably at that moment lost a few kilos chasing after Adam and Balqis, scooped Adam up and brought him to the sofa where me & an old friend were seated. Adam wailed and wailed. The darling cute boy was in great pain! :o(

Today my mind was totally on them. Adam just recovered from flu & tonsil infection so I naturally will be worried leaving him behind. Balqis has been sniffling and coughing. So that does not help... It drizzled in the morning and I was worried whether they will be cold or warm enough in whatever that they are wearing at that point of time. Balqis will be having another outing to Toys R Us with her school. The outing which is to the Toys R Us at City square will be an educational one. Not sure who's paying if anyone of the children decides that they must be seen bringing back a toy!!!

Adam's nose scarred, Balqis's cough and flu getting better and not forgeting my darling husband losing a few kilos over the weekend were the major highlights.

I think I would like to check in into Renaissance KL, soon, perhaps next Saturday, to rest awhile (yeah right!) Oh but we'll do our best to make it so that these small people would have some time away from home.

For now, I would like to go off to dreamland and rest my tired mind. Oyasuminasi and have a nice & beautiful night!



signing off..Hazelinesnow at 10:57 PM [ | ]

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Saturday, June 05, 2004

I had porridge for dinner. Darling husband bought it at the night market. At this point of time, both Balqis & Adam are asleep. Balqis, I think because of the cough syrup, flu and paracetamol syrup. Adam, I think because of the paracetamol syrup and antibiotics. But all in all, I think they are just tired. Had a frolicking time at KLCC. What's that? Oh No! Balqis is crying. Her voice is changed. Perhaps the flu is causing that. Darling husband upon seeing that I sat rooted at the chair facing the computer, took the liberty of getting up from his throne (I called it his throne because the sofa and him could really blend together sometimes -- he just park himself there and can be there until an emergency requires him to move!)and checking on Balqis. My darling Balqis still sleeps in the baby rocker. Once she's asleep then we'll removed her from the rocker and she sometimes, do wake up in the middle of the night to be in this rocker again. I think it's like a comfort zone being in that rocker, you know.


Balqis still needs night feeds. I remembered my friends telling me .. oh night feeds are not forever. Once your baby reaches the 1 year old mark, they normally go 'off' night feeds. But there are instances where it's up to a year and a half. But nothing more than that. Never.

Well, I am in that 'Never' category. Balqis is this month, 3 years and 8 months old but she still wakes up for night feeds! She will average up to 2 feeds too! Not that I am complaining because I shall be worried if she would want to stop taking her milk. Also, my darling husband always help out in that department. I have a friend whose son stopped drinking milk at the age of 2. She is devastated but then again she does not show very good examples coz she simply does not drink or like milk herself. I am basically addicted to milk. Milk is like my staple drink. And I just cant imagined both Balqis & Adam living without milk until at least puberty! I think taking milk is oh so very important to growing children.

Adam obviously still wakes up for his night feeds. This month, our darling smart boy turns 18 months old! His latest pranks is to look at himself in the mirror. Not only while combing his hair, but while just passing by the mirror and stopping over to check on how he looks like... check his hair, his hand (wave!wave!) and his smile (with dimple). Stopped by to take a look at how he looks like carrying some of his favorite toys will also be an event of the day. This all started when he caught me trying to manage my mane infront of the mirror and I didnt realise that he was watching every single move Mom makes! He went to the mirror, chubby fingers in what ever hair he has (he came out bald! unlike Balqis who came out into this world with a bush of standing hairstyle), looking and scrutinising his face. So help me God -- what have I created here.

I think I am going to hit the shower now. Need a rest. Last night was a horrific kind of night where Adam was hit by a gruesome tummy ache. Mommy and Daddy spends majority of last night, changing Adam numerous times, pacifying him, giving him colic drops, administering minyak gamat and massaging his legs. We also took turns carrying him as he screams with his tummy pain. I think both of us did all these with our eyes closed. Finally just before dawn, he settled down and we managed to sleep. Before I could even feel rested, it was already 7am!

Have a nice night. Me off to dreamland soon.



signing off..Hazelinesnow at 9:32 PM [ | ]

{Takes all sorts to make the world .. the world..}

Thursday, June 03, 2004

When I was pregnant with Balqis in 2000 (according to the Chinese, it's the Year of the Dragon), our family doctor, Doctor Rayney Azmi Ali told me that 'It's a girl!' I secretly was exhilarated because I wanted so much for my first baby to be a girl. But I carried this secret (which I shared with my darling husband of course) very closely to my heart not wanting to announce it to anybody else. I thought if I were to tell everybody about it, it would not be a girl (one of those superstition) and just in case if Doctor Rayney made a mistake. Anyway, God is great so I dont want to be too excited. My preparation for the coming baby was also for a non-specific gender. Nobody in this big wide world knew except for me, my darling husband and of course Doctor Rayney and his staff at Kohilal Medical Centre in Melawati.


At first I had two names in my mind. If it's really a girl it's going to be Sarah Lyana or Lisa Diana. If it's a boy it would have been a surprise because I didnt think of a boy's name at that particular juncture. But before Balqis was born, my sister in-law who was also pregnant at that time, gave birth to a baby girl and named the baby Aina Sarah. Too close for comfort I thought. I've got to think of another name. But of course as I was still running my PR agency full time at the time, what with presentations and consultation, work at its busiest, I didnt manage to come up with any names whatsoever. And as it is, no inspiration came to us. Of course my darling husband conveniently leaves everything up to me!

So when my baby was born I had to look through all the baby names books and was drawn to the name - Balqis, Queen of Sheba, wife of Nabi Sulaiman. I asked my dad for his opinion and he said ... yes it's allright. And then my dad said .. Puteri Balqis. That would mean that her first initial would be a 'P' and that would also mean that she may be sitted behind in class and during exams. The worry wart started even then. So my dad said... Okay ... Balqis Putry. Born 26 October 2000.

That's how we got Balqis's name. Balqis Putry. Later, when she was about 1 year plus -- I kind of thought of a middle name for her. Balqis Delima Putry but of course... it's just in our minds and hearts.

Adam was more straight forward. The cool dude. In 2002 (according to the Chinese, the Year of the Horse) Doctor Rayney announced 'It's a boy!' and again, I prayed very hard for this to come true. I would have a pair and that would make my life complete. I chose the name Adam as I got into my 2nd trimester and confirmed it as I entered into the final months. Only thing in my heart was that, if it's going to be a girl again, I would have to find the name after the baby's born. I actually didnt really mind if it was to be another girl. But was exhilarated that it was going to be a boy when announced! Confirmed Adam Putra. Born 10 December 2002. Just a day after his father's birthday!

Just a day before the registration, my darling husband who had been, this time looking through baby names himself, was quite attracted to the name Faris. Right after the registration, he announced that the baby boy is to be Adam Faris Putra.

Thus, Balqis 'Delima' Putry and Adam Faris Putra went into history, just as it was.



signing off..Hazelinesnow at 2:50 PM [ | ]

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Adam had a 38.5 temperature yesterday in the evening. The baby sitter told me that he had been feverish the whole day! And yesterday I didnt call in to check on Adam! I took him directly to Dr. Norliza and he was immediately administered the supp via the anus. The poor darling has a tonsil infection. The right side of his tonsil is swollen! It must be painful for him to swallow. My poor darling Adam.

Just called to see if Adam is feverish again. It's a very challenging task giving Adam medicine and this morning, he has to take his panadol syrup & antibiotics which we know, will result in a lot of wriggling and kicking and screaming. Fortunately the baby sitter managed these two medication but not without fuss as I'd imagined. Kak Ani assured me that Adam is without temperature at the moment and is playing like his normal healthy self. Sigh ...

Now I'm worried about Balqis. Hope she's OK at school today. Imperative to be back early today. Target to leave office: 5pm sharp not a second longer. So help me God!

signing off..Hazelinesnow at 10:50 AM [ | ]

{Takes all sorts to make the world .. the world..}

Wednesday, June 02, 2004

Had my hair trimmed, styled and blow-curled yesterday. While I was at it, I thought might as well have my manicure and pedicure done too. A sigh of relief for my poor nails. Balqis saw my hair as I waited for her at the day care gate. She looked at me in amazement and wondered aloud as to when Mommy did this to her hair, without considering about Balqis! She was not too happy at being left behind or so she thought. I gathered that - 'how come I went without her' was the general feeling. She went inside the car and broke down in tears because she wants her hair to look like Mommy's and Mommy left her and went on her own to do her hair. I was thinking perhaps I'll take her for a trim soon. She will always be so exhilarated at the thought of having her hair cut but when the time comes and she'd chosen the rabbit chair, had the towel around her neck & the covers around her body, she'll not even smile while the stylist does her hair! (oh yeah ....I did take some pictures when she last had her hair - will find it. She looked so cute!)

Adam slept on his own with me beside him. Since my darling husband is away on an out stationed trip, I had to take over the tasks of putting the two babies to sleep. I let Adam play with his toys until he is real sleepy. He practically dropped his toys, grabbed the milk and laid down to sleep. Unlike my darling husband, who will try his best to put both of them to sleep as early as 8pm, I am more of a liberalist. I'd rather have them play first, do colors, be naughty and then go to sleep. That way, I get to be with them a bit longer in the evening.

Today was Balqis's outing with her Holiday Campers - to Memorial Tun Abdul Razak. I'd packed up her little Barbie backpack with her favorite Cape Cod cap (in case it is hot), mineral water (the one with Looney Tunes design else she wont want to drink plain water), a box of picnic-sized cereal and a sweater, just in case if it gets cold in the Memorial. I was actually in a negotiation meeting with a corporate client this morning when I had this gnawing feeling resulting in me excusing myself to make an urgent phone call. A step back from the corporate world to be, in reality, the worried mother. The phone call was of course to Balqis's school to ensure that the backpack is with her during the trip. The way I put it across was more like a question rather than a demand. I asked whether it'll be ok for Balqis to bring the backpack with her and Mrs. Law answered 'Yes of course, why not. Will make sure she brings it with her' and I am very sure, she understands exactly where the conversation stems from - the ever worry wart! Feeling assured and more settled, I re-joined the negotiation meeting. The executive mode back in gear.

Last night, Balqis was quietly doing her colors, while Mom fixed some dinner of rice & vegetable soup when I suddenly heard Balqis crying. She wanted Daddy, the poor darling Balqis. I didn't have the heart to tell her that Daddy was not coming home last night. So I took her in my arms, sat her on my knees and hugged her while she cried her heart out. The poor baby. Adam, as usual, always the cool dude, didn't seem perturbed with not having Daddy around.

This morning I set aside Balqis's green Poney Classic t-shirt, her Winnie the Pooh's socks and her light brown khaki trousers (It's the era of wanting to wear only long pants with Balqis nowadays), with dolphin motives all over it, bought at Reject Shop. She kind of wanted her Somerset Bay leather shoes for today but I told her that she'll look just as spectacular wearing her normal Bubble Gummers pink school shoes too and she agreed.

Darling husband is coming home tonight. Miss him. And I bet that the kids miss him too.

Sayonara ... Ja Mata!

signing off..Hazelinesnow at 11:08 PM [ | ]

{Takes all sorts to make the world .. the world..}